motivation

Motivation keeps the wheel turning

I’ve never been more excited about my photos. I think I finally put my finger on what I want to express and that is light. Light against darkness, light reflection, my kind of photographic chiaroscuro.

But also, I want to keep showing my perspective of the city. All kinds of streets and buildings, architecture details, corners, people, life.

I’m really motivated and I keep going out and take photos. I really hope one day I’ll have the chance to exhibit some of them and see how people will react.

My biggest wish at the moment.

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Quick question: Don’t you realize how worse off you could be living?

I’ve got a notification from “On this day” on Facebook and it’s about a song a posted. Year later I can still relate to this song and I’ll probably always will.

The second verse goes like this:

“Quick question: Don’t you realize how worse off you could be living? Or not living at all; You’re lucky and you should see how many good things come your way; If you don’t you won’t make life a fun and pleasant stay”

And than the chorus:

“Think about all that you have not about what you can’t get”

I love Pennywise, it’s a great band and one of my favorites. I can relate to lot of their songs and this hits the right spot at the moment. I feel mentally exhausted cause a lot of things don’t go my way. But, I always feel grateful that I have a life, an opportunity to make good thing happened and to enjoy all that I want while I can. I don’t won’t to find comfort in the fact that life can always be worst, but it’s true. Be happy with what you got and fight for what you don’t.

Favorite place in the city

The autumn sun feels like a lightweight delicate cardigan, soft and soothing on your skin. The yellow paths are crunching under my favorite Reebok Royal’s with every step I take. The crunching of the crispy leaves is my dearest autumn melody.

The season is changing.

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Change is beautiful. But what does it bring?

I’m soaking up the scrumptious wind that makes me think of roasted cinnamon pumpkin and warm cup of salep. I feel right at home under the orange canopy, relaxed, de-stressed. Leaves are abandoning their trees and finding their place on the ground. Piles of shades of yellow and orange are making me feel tempted to jump into them like they’re a big fluffy bean bag. Yellow bright sun rays are cutting their way through the yellow trees and leaving their light spread all over the ground.

A heavenly scene.

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A dilemma

In the past 2 days I had 3 interview for the same job position, but in different hotels. I think all of the interviews went more than okay and now I’m left with a dilemma.

There are 2 hotels that I’m torn between. One of the hotels is a bit low key and I would only have to work second and third shifts. The pro for this one is that considering I’ll be just learning how to work the position that I’d be getting, it would be nice if I have more time to adapted before I jump into a more busy and popular place. But… I loved the other hotel. It’s right next to the city square, it’s very popular and the design of the place is amazing! But, I witnessed a bit of the work there and it seemed crazy busy. To be honest, it scared me a bit.

But even though it scares me, it also draws me to it. I don’t know why, but it makes me want to be right in the middle of everything.

Is it stupid to be drawn towards what scares you?

I have a lot to think about. I’m doubting my abilities and I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to make it there.

Two weeks later ~ Every chance is a new lesson

It’s been two weeks since my last interview for a job a really wanted to get. I didn’t get a call back. Deep inside, I knew I wouldn’t, but I still yearned for it.

Never mind. This is just a start; a start of a fight for a better life. In a way, I like it. Of course I would like it to be easier than this, to get a chance sooner than later. But I like the hustle. I like the anticipation. Love the feeling of hope. Enjoy the spirit of resistance. Live for the challenge.

I had another interview this morning for a job I don’t really want, but was kinda curious about it. I rescheduled it for friday morning because I don’t have anything to wear. So, I have couple of days to buy few things and possibly get ready. I like the place where the job is, it’s very luxurious and it would be a nice place to work at. But, I hate the location, I don’t really feel safe there.

Anyway, I’ll be going to the interview just because I need the experience of being interviewed. I want to get perfectly comfortable at talking with influential people who can perhaps one day hire me.

Every chance is a new lesson.