Midweek chill

I just took shower and I feel so refreshed and relaxed. I used a new body nourishing soft oil balm that I bought on my way home from work and I feel even more refreshed and nice. I smells like a cupcake because it has ingredients such as almond extract and shea butter.

I’m in my favorite soft fleece pajama pants, just to get the full chill experience of the night. I’m having a cup of Lipton’s classic black tea and some roasted almonds. I’m finishing “Something Wicked This Way Comes” by Ray Bradbury, while listening to the crazy good “Havana Cultura: ¡Súbelo, Cuba!” songs.

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Feels good to be on my own with no obligations for couple of hours.

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A book, a coffee and a park

There’s nothing more I love doing on a day off than going to my favorite place in the city with the book I’m currently reading, to just relax and enjoy a cup of coffee.

I’ve got my back against a tree, fully relaxed seating on the grass. My face is under a deep shadow, but my legs are getting sun tanned and it feels good to feel the heat on my skin. There is a nice chilly breeze brushing my face and hair, from time to time. It keeps reminding my how good it it’s to be alive.

Rad Bradbury’s “Something Wicked This Way Comes” goes well with a coconut macchiato. The taste of the Summer and the story of the Autumn. The sparkling of the water gets my attention between lines, just enough to gather my thoughts and go along with Jim’s and Will’s carnival adventure. People are passing by me, enthralled in their conversation. Friends, couples, pets, individuals. People living their life.

After finishing my coffee and couple of chapters, I’ve recharged my battery’s with my favorite protein bar and took a long walk all around the park to empty my head of the bad energy from the negative events that build up during the entire week.

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Last year part of the staff, this year part of the visual arts as an artist

Last year I volunteered to be a part of the stuff of “Paratissima Skopje“, the art fair.

I had fun and learned a lot while helping organize the event. Last year I was determined that next year I’ll be exhibiting with an art piece of mine. So, I did.

This year under a different name, “InSitu” opened on the 13.09.2018 and closed on the 15.09.2018. I exhibited a photograph that has always been one of my favorite and I always wanted to see it framed and exhibited.

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To be honest, it felt freaking amazing! I stayed true to my wish and goal that I had for a whole year, I worked on it and did something that I actually love. And I shared it with the world.

I can’t express how much this motivates me. I want to do more of this and as often as I can. I want to get inspired, get creative, express my self and share it with the rest of the world!

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We are all alone

Sometimes I get cozy in life enough to think that I have a person who loves me. I let him hug me and kiss me and I let myself do the same to him. I look at him and his face makes me smile because I’m pleased. Inside of me, I’m longing for a touch and when I feel those touches, I forget all of the difficulties and troubles in life. I forget where I am and who I am.

Sometimes I get cozy in life enough to open up and start talking about everything I can think of, thinking I can say it. Thinking there’s a meaning if I say it. Thinking there’s a person who cares if I say it.

Sometimes I forget that I’m alone. We are all alone. No one cares for anyone. At moments you might think opposite, but those are the moments when you accidentally drag yourself into a delusion, only because you’ve let yourself get cozy enough. And you’re not suppose to let yourself get cozy. You can’t forget that you can not get cozy. Because you don’t get anything good of getting cozy, other than momentarily satisfaction. But when you remember, reality bites you so hard, you realize that you’re just an empty skeleton that will lose it’s soul at some point. Alone. Because no body cares.